FOR WOMEN

He's not perfect.

You aren't either.

And the two of you will never be perfect.

But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can.

He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment...

 but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.

Don't hurt him, don't change him.

 And don't expect more than he can give.

Don't analyze.

Smile when he makes you happy, yell when makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there.

Love hard when there is love to be had.

Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guys that is perfect for you.

-BOB MARLEY-

goodbye may! you may be my special month :)

Yeaay this is June already!! how excited i am. nanana *dancing*. (iwak peyek backsound) 
okay, i don't even know why should iwak peyek -____- 


Yo! Can't wait for snmptn. can't wait for running my college life. can't wait for meet new friends. can't wait for Russian Literature (and also English Literature if i'm lucky). it would be a great month i guess! as usually, so many people wrote their expectation on social media (of course plus hashtag in last word yeah haha). but special for this month, i just wanna share my wishes in my blogspot. let's see those below this text later...


last month, i had a lot of stories and i've been through many experience. 


in the month of May, i'm waiting for something that everytime i thought about it, i got my heart beating more faster. it was made me excited whenever i remember about it. you know what? yess...graduation announcements. until i know the result that we are graduated from that damned school, i'll never forget all of things in there, our effort, our togetherness, our experience, learning that i got, and the last.. the love that i got :) suddenly i realized... we aren't together anymore. *sobs* this is the last story about school life. start from when i was kindergarten, then elementary school arround 6 years, next to junior high sucks school (3 years), and 3 years full of fuckness in vocational high school. so, goodbye uniform. goodbye shoes. goodbye tie. goodbye everything about school stuff. we'll miss ya one time   


in the month of May, i was talking a lot about college. i became know which one the university who has a good quality and good reputation from my parents. aha! yes my parents :). they always know the best for me. they let me choose what i want but still gave me an advice. they're so wise :') i pick 'that' college for snmptn, they agreed. i pick two majors on my own, they agreed. but when i pick another college for reserve, they aren't agreed :(  nevermind... i know the reasons. and i amdited it finally. i'm so grateful because i've parents who still cared at me and understanding about college. thanks mom, thanks dad.


in the month of May, i've got a sweet experience with him :) i can't tell you in here. that's my privacy, only us and God whose knowing. 


and.....
in the month of may, i build relationships with someone who treat me like i'm a princess =) exactly, since M-A-Y 06, 2012. he's so romantic too. he's clever. he's mature enough. he's wise. he's so hilarious. he's so brave. he never ask me to change anything in myself. he let me to be a women as my own way :) but if i did a mistake, he will not be quiet. he would spoke to me that is wrong. i love him so much after Allah and my mom. mihihi


And this is my wishes for June.. *teeeeet teeeeeeet* *marching band sounds* 
(wait wait... i set playlist to Bondan fade2black song - Ya sudahlah)
1. i wish i could passed snmptn with the good score
2. i wish i could gettin' my fave college. 
3. i wish i could get (at least) Russian Literature in that college. But i still hoping too much for English Literature.
4. i wish i could make my parents, sister, family, proud of me because my achievement.
5. i wish my school will held a traveling in the last of graduation.
6. i wish this relationship will be staay for a looooong time until we.......*ahahaha*
7. i wish he'll find the job quickly
8. i wish my friends could find a job. And for those who continuing to college, God will gave them easier way to get it.


yeaah i think it's enough. just 8. simply. and no moreee :) 
for someone who read this post, would you mind to say "ameeen"? so i will loving you guys hahaha. but for remind, human can planning anything but God who decides it. keep praying :)


thank youu so muuuch to reading. i love yaa :)

labibeeh..

Ah, i love you like a love song baby

Makasih ya udah mau ngajakin aku main

Makasih udah bikin hari-hari aku jadi lebih menyenangkan

Makasih udah mau dengerin aku curhat

Makasih udah culik aku keluar disaat aku lagi bete di rumah

Makasih udah traktir-traktir aku jajan

Makasih udah bantuin aku bikin pengalaman baru

Makasih udah ada waktunya buat nemenin aku jalan

Makasih udah mau bagi-bagi pengalaman

Makasih aa danie sayaaaaaang :*

"Iya bener, Fauzi banget!"

Barusan abis nge-stalk akun @TipeDarah , disana gue iseng baca-baca tweetan tentang golongan darah O dan menurut gue ke akuratannya emang bener hampir mencapai 99,9%. Gue sih sebenernya AB, yang O itu ya pacar gue (si akang Danie), yaudah deh akhirnya gue RT RT-in aja tweetannya! hahaha. Ini dia...

akun twitter gue: @raaasssyid

Me plus you

Setelah di cermati dan di renungkan dalam-dalam, gue baru sadar… ternyata gue dan dia sungguh unik. Bukan, bukan dilihat dari fisik kami yang unik karena muka gue tidak penyok-penyok. Hanya mengingatkan, gue masih cantik seperti dulu. Dan dia juga tidak botak seperti bubu atau bermuka unik seperti tukul. Dia tampan. Tapi unik disini maksudnya adalah unik sifat. Ya, kami memang sangat unik. Pasalnya disini yang lebih banyak omong justru malah dia, pacar gue. Dia lebih cerewet dan senang sekali ngobrol dibandingkan gue yang cenderung lebih sering menjadi pendengar. Sekalinya dia cerita, bakalan panjang nyambung-nyambung kemana tau sampe lupa waktu. Biasanya kan tahu sendiri, cewek dimana-mana lebih cerewet dan yang cool itu cowoknya. Tapi untuk kasus yang satu ini jelas berbeda.

Mungkin gue lebih ke ‘manja’nya kali ya. Gue suka banget nyubit-nyubitin pipi dia, narik-narik idungnya, dan terkadang mepet-mepetin badan ke sweaternya yang wangi itu. Gajelas maksudnya apa, tapi gue sering lho ngelakuin itu kalo dia merhatiin gue dengan tatapan dalem. Kan maluuuuu cooooooy diliatin pacar lama-lama kaya gitu, guenya bisa sampe melting (ahaha najong yee?) Tapi gak munafik sih gue.

Dan disini yang lebih kayak anak kecil adalah gue. Dia itu walaupun cerewet tapi dewasanya masih di perhatikan dengan baik. Lucu deh pokoknya di balik tampangnya yang cool dan pendiem itu, siapa sangka ternyata dia sebenernya banyak omong dan rame. Gak heran kalo dia sering di cari-cariin temen-temennya buat diajak nongkrong, katanya sih kalo gak ada dia gak rame gitu.

Pokoknya dia itu sosok yang dapat membawa ion-ion penyemangat baru buat gue. Dia juga yang selalu cerewet buat ingetin gue makan, dia juga yang nasehatin gue dengan kata-kata bijaknya ketika gue sedang kesal dan bete sama nyokap (dia paling gasuka kalo gue jelek-jelekin nyokap dengan kata kasar, karena dia sendiri cukup dekat dengan ibunya). Ya, semoga gue dan dia bisa langgeng dan baik-baik aja. Soalnya gue udah terlanjur sayang sama dia sih hihi :p      

In a Relationship

I'll never know what the future brings 
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

Hal-hal yang membuatku jatuh cinta padamu:

1. Dewasanya kamu ketika berbicara

2. Dewasanya kamu ketika berfikir

3. Pembawaan dirimu yang tenang dan cool

4. Kamu selalu memegang teguh prinsip-prinsip yang kamu buat

5. Meskipun kelihatan jarang ngomong, tapi kalau udah deket pasti kamu nyerocos terus

6. Kamu mandiri, tidak bergantung pada orang tua.

7. Kamu tidak pernah malu menceritakan pengalaman, kehidupan pribadi, atau keluarga kepadaku.

8. Kamu terbuka dan tidak pernah menutupi masalah-masalahmu. Segala sesuatunya selalu kamu ceritakan.

9. Kamu apa adanya. Tidak berusaha menjadi orang lain :)

10. Kamu selalu jujur

11. Kamu punya pandangan hidup yang baik

12. Kamu tidak pernah ragu berbagi kisah denganku

13. Kamu selalu belajar dari pengalaman

14. Kamu pintar masak (walaupun aku belum pernah nyicipin masakan kamu :p)

15. Meskipun kelihatan sombong, tapi kamu tidak pernah ragu membantu teman yang sedang kesulitan

16. Kamu gak pernah membandingkan aku dengan orang lain :)

17. Kamu memiliki pemikiran yang kritis

18. Meskipun kamu anggota bikers, tapi kamu masih punya tata krama dan tidak anarkis.

19. Kamu memang tidak terlalu mencolok di akademik, tapi di kehidupan nyata kamu sangat cerdas

20. Kamu selalu memberikan saran yang beralasan dan maksud akal

21. Sikap kamu yang pantang menyerah

22. Kamu tidak pernah takut mencoba segala hal baru

23. Kamu sangat aktif dan tidak bisa berdiam diri

24. Kamu pintar bermain gitar

25. Kamu orang yang usil

26. Kamu punya adik perempuan, kakak perempuan, dan seorang ibu yang sabar. Dengan begitu kamu akan menghargai seorang perempuan dan tidak pernah meremehkannya

27. Rasa banggamu terhadap budaya yang di warisi orang tua

28. Kamu percaya diri

29. Kamu berusaha merubah sifat burukmu karena belajar dari pengalaman yang pernah terjadi

30. Dan yang terakhir..... kamu tampan :)

I don’t know why you’re so far away 

But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

FOR YOU, P.R

-May, 06 2012-

Mihihihi

P.R 

I TALKING ABOUT HIM

She always exist on your status, and you too. Why both of you are so closed? do you like her, huh? I told you, I'M JEALOUS. It's okay if you on her status (everytime), but you also do the same for me. I mean, you also on my status (hahaha). Sounds very selfish? ya, i guess so. But i've lost my patience. I'm getting hurt everytime seeing you and her on my recent update. I still like you, i have a lot of feeling for you, i'm expect too much for you, but see what you did to me? You never understand about love. I'm tired because i've spent my time to worries about you. I'm jealous... jealous... very jealous... and maybe you never know it. You aren't sensitif person, and i called it with my stupid-dumb-thing that i did for you. I'm too believe and maybe it's my mistake that i've ever did!!
And the last night (the klimaks)... you was dissapear. You didn't reply my text. Ahhhh... beside, my negative thinking said that my texted which i sent to him was excessive. You don't need to know what the text, but my feeling said like that. He was mad at me. 


see you ...

Everything with you

I want to wake up next to you, eat breakfast with you, get changed with you, play computer games with you, watching movies with you in bed, hold your hand and watch tv, send you cute texts, buy you gifts, nap together, wear your comfy hoody when i'm cold, look into your eyes, be with you at sunrise and sunset, cook for you, walk in the rain with you, fall asleep whilst on the phone to you, snuggle in bed, mess up your hair, kiss you goodnight

Touching

I want a boy who would hold my hand in line at the mall and make all the girls jealous. 

I want someone who would sing to me at random moments. 

Someone who is more goofy than romantic. 

A boy who would throw stuffed animals at me when i'm acting dumb. 

Someone who would bet me kisses that he could beat me at all the old playstation games and then let me win. A guys who would make fun of me just to hear my laugh. 

He'd play with my hair all the time & surprise me with 25 cent rings. 

Someone who i could share lollipops with & lay on a blanket with to count the stars. 

We'd buy tons of disposable cameras to take the silliest pictures of each other & squirt water guns at each other in the house. 

But mostly, someone who would be my bestfriend & would never break my heart. 

He would just always make me smile :)

YOU

Errgh ya i'm in the bad feelings right now. There's something wrong with my mind since yesterday, hmm how to explain it? I don't even know, it's very complicated, but obviously i missed someone out there. Ya, i'm talking about someone in here (it's rarely isn't it?). Someone who always text me everyday and everynight. Someone who always makes me smiling everytime i receive the text because he often called me "Miss beautiful" or another words that could make me stopped breathing. Someone who has many experience of his life and never doubt to sharing them with me. Someone who can give me an advice, Someone who always understanding me and willing to listen all of my confide, either it's happy, grumpy, sad, my feeling at that time, and about my experience. Someone who used to tell about his family, his favorite, his friends, his life, and...what else?  

He has something that can make me comfortable: He is a good adviser. He is quite mature. He is an independent guy. He is funny. He is very love talking. And the important: Now, he's not a stranger again for me. He is very different from what i have been think before: he is an arrogant, stubborn, weird, and cold guy. Of course i'm very wrong! Okay maybe in people eyes, he was like that. But just for me, in real life, he wasn't like that.

  

And now, here i am: worrying to him because he doesn't text me. Haisss i'm very sad right now. He suddenly disappeared. I'm feel lonely and need him to talk about something. What's going on with you? Honestly i really want to text him first, but i can't. Doesn't he realize that i'm woman? OMG I suddenly wanna crying. Really i miss you...

Little depressed

Confused with you

Oh fuck i can't sleep again. I don't know why everynight i alwasy like this, whether insom, whether thinking about you, whether thinking the problem with my parents, or another thoughts in my brain that always bothered me, i don't really know what the reason is it. But for now, i guess it because of Nescafe effect. Ya, i had just got one and the taste is not too bad (okay i know i'm tacky), but hey i bought it with my own money hahaha. Oh well just for info, I spend my money for having fun only if i getting stressed like now. Doesn't matter about the price, is important i felt very satisfied after all. So please don't comment anything!!

I'm waiting my parents going to sleep while i keep laying on bed and reading novel. When they're started to do, i get up from bed and then make sure that my parents already entering bedroom hahaha. Yess it's my modus because my dad will be angry if i haven't yet go to sleep on middle night. And now, i successfully doing that modus. I took mom notebook and brought to room. I locked the bedroom door and then started to surfing in cyberspace hahahha XD *Hey dad, hey mom, see...see..your daughter! hahaha what she did at this time?. hahaha LOL. Now, i using your notebook mom. Can you see me dad, mom? hahaha oh ya im forget, you both already sleep. Hahaha Okay have a nice dream then :p bubye*

Well, here i am. Sit in front of notebook and don't even know what topics that i gonna wrote. I don't want to tell you about parents (oh shit, it so bored). Better i tell you about him right now. Yeay H-I-M..
He text me first about two hours ago and as usuall, he asking "Ehm. What are you doing" and actually i want to reply: "I just waiting your text" *slapped*, obviously it wasn't happen. Am i crazy? hahaha. Honestly before he texted me, i just feeling that i miss him very much. I wonder, why he didn't yet texted me? I'm waiting him for a long time. AND SUCKS! i suddenly get sadness during wait his text. I'm trying to keep positive thinking, example: maybe he hasn't pulse, maybe he's busy, maybe he turning off his phone, maybe he bla, maybe he bla...bla bla bla. But shortly afterwards, god hearing my pray, my phone vibrates and when i opened it turns out a text from him. He text me at 19:24, i suddenly very happier. I'm so lucky.

   
But isn't too long, we just talked for a while and after that, he was disappear, didn't know where is he gone :( He hasn't reply my last text. I only get little sad because at least, he text me first on right moment when i really really miss him. Okay i must accept it. Huhuhuhuhuuaaaaa asdlsjlhfhkld. One thing that i always ask with myself, whether i'm the only girl that he text, or there are others too?? Oh my good, i worried guys. It seems like i want to grab his phone and check the inbox one by one. Seeing whose people that he texted. I'm thinking ...only me the person who there's in his inbox. But i realized, he is just my friend. Very stupid if i do it because i don't have rights. (may i called it fallin in love?)

Everytime i got his text, i feel so very very happy (i don't even know) feel different when i received text from another man. My feeling was more happier. But sometimes he makes pissed me off because he reply for a long time. Although we only talking about the same topics like usual, but it doesn't matter for me. (again and again....this is love?). I still don't understand why everytime we meet at school, we never talking by face to face? we were like a strange people. Feel awkward to stared face each other. Feel awkward to say 'hello' or eventhough to smile. Why oh why?...

Damn misterious! until now, i don't have a wishes for being his girlfriend. I don't wanna get hurt when i knowing that he finally with another girl. I don't want get a disappointment in the end. I must be patient and just enjoy this condition. Besides, i don't want him to rush to take action. Just let it flow dude. Okay??   

THIS IS SERIOUS !!

*YOU CAN GET THIS PICT IN HERE*

I getting mad when....

9:10
08/11/2011

Akhirnya!! Akhirnya, aku bisa menulis lagi disini setelah beberapa hari tidak menyentuh laptop karena terdapat faktor 'giliran' yang harus aku terima di rumah. Ya, kalian pasti mengerti maksudku kan? Begitulah rasanya jika kau hanya memiliki satu laptop yang dapat digunakan untuk bersama-sama dengan saudaramu. Oke memang harusnya aku lebih bersyukur karena masih bisa memilikinya, dan....mari kita lupakan masalah ini kawan :)

***

So, here's the story....

There's one boy in my school, he was still junior high school grade 3 but we are in the same building (yeah sekolah kita sama-sama numpang di SD). From beginning i didn't really notice that any handsome man like him, until one day i saw him in the cafeteria with his friends and spontaneously... i fell silent for a while at the place, doesn't budge like an electric shock. I feel like i was seeing a ghost even i didn't hear my friend talking to me at that time. Hahahahaha *LOL* ( i know it's too over, but it's really really happen!! I swear i'm not lying).

Mungkinkah ini yang di maksud dengan Pandangan Pertama? ahhh...

For a moment, i remember lyrics of Bruno Mars songs "Just The Way You Are".

When I see your face, there's not a thing that i would change.

Cause you're amazing, just the way you are.

And when you smile, the whole world stops and stares for a while.

Cause you're amazing, just the way you are. 

And after that, my days became more fun (yaah at least). Suddenly i became excited everytime i going to school. He is my mood booster you know!!. Everyday i always looking for him, hoping i can see him even though just briefly and for a minute. But it was difficult, not easy as I imagined. Perbedaan waktu pulang menjadi penyebabnya. Terkadang doi pulang duluan, terkadang doi istirahat duluan, atau malah gue yang lebih cepat. Kalaupun kita sama-sama lagi istirahat, doi pasti entah dimana sosoknya. Yang gue prediksikan, doi lagi nongkrong di suatu tempat di luar sekolahan bersama teman-temannya. If i could see him, it became a own happines for me. I can be crazy when i saw him, i getting mad and can't control my mind (silly right!) 

Example like yesterday.  When i stepped out from mushola, i've been seeing the children of JHS will going to home. OMG i'm so excited. I went looking for him in the crowded. I asking with my self "Where is he?" "I really really want to see him badly" "please god!" but what the hell??  i get dissapointed because i didn't find him :( 

useless....

little sad....

bad day....

Then...SURPRISED!! tiba tiba aja doi ada di depan gue.  God answered my prayers. How lucky i am?? Ya i see him. I see his face. I see a gorgeous face. He is so adorable oh my goodness!! I can't even. Doi ngeliat gue gitu kayak emang udah tau kalau gue bakal mencarinya. Mata kita sama-sama bertemu untuk beberapa detik. Aw~ gue hampir mati. Tatapan mata si doi ituloh yang membuat gue salah tingkah. Langsung aja buru-buru gue buang muka hahaha. Gue tidak sanggup untuk menatapnya terlalu lama.

But waaiitt...why i'm so stupid? kenapa pas gue mencari-cari doi gue malah gak ngeliat? I'm sure that he wasn't there. But why suddenly he already in front of me? IT MAKES ME AWKWARD heey...i getting mad again. And the most awkward moment is....WHEN WE HAD FACE TO FACE. O M G are you going to kill me slowly?? huh? i'm melted so much. As usually i do everytime seeing him: loncat loncat kegirangan.

Obviously even though I didn't know his name (and still curious until now) but i'm quite happy to be a secret admirrer of him. I hope one day i can know his name. Only as fan okay? I never hope to be his girlfriend. Oh come on guys, I'm 17 years old, that's weird if i loving a guy who 3 years younger than me. Hahaha impossible, right? Teman-teman gue pasti juga gak bakalan setuju. Mereka bakalan cerewet banget kalau soal asmara apalagi kalau ada yang berbeda dengan pemikiran mereka. Yah tapi kalau cuma suka atau mengidolakan gak masalah kan?

Satu satunya teman gue yang tahu tentang hal ini adalah...ehm Bait. Yeah he was knowing that i liked someone in JHS. Gue bilang "It, tetangga sebelah ada yang cakep lho" kemudian dia bertanya "siapa namanya?" I answer "Gak tahu! makanya bantuin gue dong buat cari tahu namanya" wakakakak. Dan Bait pun bersedia membantu meskipun sampai sekarang dia belum mendapatkan jawaban atas pertanyaan gue.

Gue selalu menunggu....menunggu....dan menunggu...
Sebenernya teman-teman cewek gue belum ada yang tahu soal ini. I'm not ready to telling with them karena gue takut di cengin atau mereka bakalan comel. Yah tau sendiri kan mulut cewek sama mulut cowok tuh beda. Cowok tuh jarang ngegosip, sedangkan cewek? makanya gue lebih berani cerita sama Bait dibanding cerita sama mereka. Even my chairmate didn't knowing about it. Biarlah semuanya menjadi rahasia gue, bait, dan Allah.


Next, the reason why i liked him? Not too much karena gue pikir doi bukanlah tipe cowok populer di kelasnya. Doi juga bukan pemain basket atau superstar. Kalau dilihat sepintas mungkin agak mirip mirip si R. Tapi doi mukanya gak Arabian kok. Dengan rambut hitam berombak, postur tubuh yang proposional, sama matanya yang tajam cukup menjadi alasan kenapa gue mengidolakan doi. 

Gue sering memperhatikan doi secara sembunyi-sembunyi ketika berada di luar kelas (yeah i'm a stalker hihihi) dan anehnya doi selalu sadar bahwa dirinya sedang di perhatikan soalnya doi selalu menengok ke arah gue seperti punya indera keenam. Satu ciri khas yang selalu gue ingat dari dirinya yaitu: sweeater hitam putih garis-garis yang sering ia kenakan ketika cuaca mendung. Doi kelihatan adorable ketika memakai itu. Ulalala ^_^


Terkadang yang gue takuti adalah doi punya pemikiran seperti ini "Nih cewek kenapa sih suka ngeliatin gue terus?" (itu pemikiran negatif gue). Sedangkan pemikiran positif gue: Doi juga penasaran sama gue alias suka sama gue. Hahaha. Entah apa yang ada di pikirannya, yang jelas gue selalu senang setiap kali ngeliat doi. Kalau saja gue tahu namanya, mungkin gue bakal langsung menulis namanya secara jelas di twitter, facebook, atau disini. Gak perlu pake doi doi lagi. 

 Untuk sementara ini gue hanya bisa berDoa: semoga Bait secepatnya tau nama doi siapa supaya gue gak penasaran lagi. Semoga suatu hari nanti gue bisa mendengar suaranya seperti apa (honestly i never heard the sounds of him) apakah suaranya ngebass, cempreng, atau kayak cewek kejepit pintu. Semoga gue bisa menjadi temannya di facebook atau mungkin twitter (hanya untuk menjadi TEMAN!), dan semoga teman-teman gue tidak tahu tentang ini. Ameen :)