goodbye may! you may be my special month :)

Yeaay this is June already!! how excited i am. nanana *dancing*. (iwak peyek backsound) 
okay, i don't even know why should iwak peyek -____- 


Yo! Can't wait for snmptn. can't wait for running my college life. can't wait for meet new friends. can't wait for Russian Literature (and also English Literature if i'm lucky). it would be a great month i guess! as usually, so many people wrote their expectation on social media (of course plus hashtag in last word yeah haha). but special for this month, i just wanna share my wishes in my blogspot. let's see those below this text later...


last month, i had a lot of stories and i've been through many experience. 


in the month of May, i'm waiting for something that everytime i thought about it, i got my heart beating more faster. it was made me excited whenever i remember about it. you know what? yess...graduation announcements. until i know the result that we are graduated from that damned school, i'll never forget all of things in there, our effort, our togetherness, our experience, learning that i got, and the last.. the love that i got :) suddenly i realized... we aren't together anymore. *sobs* this is the last story about school life. start from when i was kindergarten, then elementary school arround 6 years, next to junior high sucks school (3 years), and 3 years full of fuckness in vocational high school. so, goodbye uniform. goodbye shoes. goodbye tie. goodbye everything about school stuff. we'll miss ya one time   


in the month of May, i was talking a lot about college. i became know which one the university who has a good quality and good reputation from my parents. aha! yes my parents :). they always know the best for me. they let me choose what i want but still gave me an advice. they're so wise :') i pick 'that' college for snmptn, they agreed. i pick two majors on my own, they agreed. but when i pick another college for reserve, they aren't agreed :(  nevermind... i know the reasons. and i amdited it finally. i'm so grateful because i've parents who still cared at me and understanding about college. thanks mom, thanks dad.


in the month of May, i've got a sweet experience with him :) i can't tell you in here. that's my privacy, only us and God whose knowing. 


and.....
in the month of may, i build relationships with someone who treat me like i'm a princess =) exactly, since M-A-Y 06, 2012. he's so romantic too. he's clever. he's mature enough. he's wise. he's so hilarious. he's so brave. he never ask me to change anything in myself. he let me to be a women as my own way :) but if i did a mistake, he will not be quiet. he would spoke to me that is wrong. i love him so much after Allah and my mom. mihihi


And this is my wishes for June.. *teeeeet teeeeeeet* *marching band sounds* 
(wait wait... i set playlist to Bondan fade2black song - Ya sudahlah)
1. i wish i could passed snmptn with the good score
2. i wish i could gettin' my fave college. 
3. i wish i could get (at least) Russian Literature in that college. But i still hoping too much for English Literature.
4. i wish i could make my parents, sister, family, proud of me because my achievement.
5. i wish my school will held a traveling in the last of graduation.
6. i wish this relationship will be staay for a looooong time until we.......*ahahaha*
7. i wish he'll find the job quickly
8. i wish my friends could find a job. And for those who continuing to college, God will gave them easier way to get it.


yeaah i think it's enough. just 8. simply. and no moreee :) 
for someone who read this post, would you mind to say "ameeen"? so i will loving you guys hahaha. but for remind, human can planning anything but God who decides it. keep praying :)


thank youu so muuuch to reading. i love yaa :)

labibeeh..

eighteen years old

Yap yap this is my birthday.

Just to remember...

18 years ago, i was born to the earth through caesar operation from a great woman ever. 

Guess who? 

ya, She's my mom :)

Sedikit cerita di hari ulang tahun gue ini yang biasa-biasa aja, ada beberapa hal yang ingin gue share sama teman-teman bloggies. Gak terlalu seru sih karena gue hari ini tidak kemana-mana (hehe), tapi yang namanya lagi bahagia sah-sah aja dong sharing sama kalian? muehehehe

First: 

'He said happy birthday'

Gue dapet ucapan selamat ulang tahun dari si doi pas tengah malem sekitar jam 00:05. OMG, dia adalah orang pertama yang say HB ke gue. Awalnya gue fikir dia lupa karena malemnya kita masih smsan seperti biasa dan doi sama sekali gak ngungkit tentang ulang tahun. Tololnya gue pake acara ketiduran segala dan baru baca tuh sms sekitar 30 menit kemudian.

Hahaha. Maaf yaa kaseep.

Isi smsnya ituloh yang bikin gue terharu :')

Wawawawa... pas baca itu gue jadi senyum-senyum sendiri.

Kemudian gue bales: 

"waaaaa lo inget ***** ? :o hihi thanks yaaa"

Eh dia bales:

"Hahaha. Inget lah gue. Lu kan pernah ngucapin selamet juga ke gue"

Gue bales:

"Oh iya yaa :o Okee.. makacii lagi yaa ***** :* .Seneng ih gw"

(sumpah alay bgt gue disitu. bodo lah)

Dia malah bales:

"Iya sama". Udah sana tidur gih. Tar sakit loh"

 (Gubraaaaak!!!)

 Semenit kemudian ada sms dari doi lagi:

"Maaf yah gw ga bisa ngasih kado. Tar lah kalo ada uang gw kasih kado"

  

*ya ampuun gak perlu kado gue, dapet ucapan dari lo aja gue udah seneng kok :)*

thanks loh yaa... sumpah mungkin bagi doi biasa aja, tapi bagi gue ini berkesan banget. Sebelumnya gue belum pernah ada yang ngucapin selamat ultah tengah malem kayak gini terlebih dari seorang lawan jenis :( sedih yaaa emang. Tapi berkat lo, semuanya jadi berbeda. 

sekali lagi thanks for you

Second:

"My mom called me" 

  

Ibu menelefon untuk ngucapin selamat ulang tahun buat gue.

 Kejadiannya pas pagi-pagi banget sekitar jam 6-an ketika gue masih tidur. 

Beliau yang saat ini sedang di Yogyakarta untuk dinas, menelefon lewat handphone bapak yang jam segitu memang sudah bangun. 

Saat itu kakak gue nyamperin ke tempat tidur dan membangunkan gue dengan semangatnya.

"Beh, ada telfon nih dari Ibu. Mau ngomong" 

"Haah? hooh iya iya" kata gue sambil setengah merem.

Dan terjadilah percakapan itu.

Lagi-lagi gue terharu dengernya :'( 

Ibu doain gue supaya gue lulus UN, dan keinginan gue buat kuliah bisa terkabul.

Terakhir sebelum telfon di tutup, ibu bertanya:

"Mau kado apa? Tas gemblok (tas punggung) aja ya?"

(ya ampuuun masih sempet-sempetnya nyokap nawarin kado di saat dia lagi sibuk begini)

Dan gue teringat beberapa hari yang lalu disaat beliau memarahi gue karena gue tidak belajar.

Dia bilang:

"BELAJAR AJA MASIH MALES, YANG KAYAK GITU MAU SOK2AN KULIAH!! ORANG KALO KULIAH ITU HARUS RAJIN DARI AWALNYA"

Demi apa dong mau nangis gue dengernya. Tapi setelah tahu kalo beliau akhirnya mendoakan juga buat gue agar kuliah, rasanya pengen menarik semua kekesalan yang pernah gue utarakan waktu itu. 

 Thanks mom and sorry for all my fault

THIRD:  

Greeting from my overseas friends 

That special moment when my friend from Australia and Egypt saying Happy Birthday to me.

 

 

(Bobo Yacout kebiasaan manggil gue Pipaah :D haha lucu-lucu mereka tuh)

:D :D

Sekarang waktunya gue untuk membenah diri. Tahun ini adalah tahun terakhir gue memakai baju seragam, selebihnya gue akan memasuki dunia yang 'real', dunia kampus (ah sadaaap), dunia lain, dua dunia. Halah jadi ngaco gini -___-

Intinya mah, gue gapunya waktu lagi buat main-main. Gue harus membiasakan diri untuk lebih bersikap dewasa. Laki-laki mana yang mau sama perempuan yang sikapnya masih kayak anak kecil? oh nooo. Sekali lagi makasih banget buat orang2 yang udah ngucapin hari ini. Terutama buat sahabat2 gue Dita, Zulfah, Kamila, Novi, dan teman-teman di sekolah. Thanks atas doa kalian yaa.

Okay guys thank you for read my post. I'll be back to share awesome thing on next time :)

see yaaa

with love,

Labibah

when everything is worst to you and you don't know how to explain

It's enough...

Everything was over...

I'm tired to being like this where people always underestimate my dreams.

I'm tired to hearing your disparaging's words everytime i told it to you. 

Your face, your words, your unimportant sentences it's all makes me sick.

Maybe you guys don't understand what the meaning of appreciation, that's why you guys so easy to speak like that to me.

It's all makes sick. It's all makes me realize that i'm surely not able to get it.

I hate to accept this reality but i do!

You guys are sucks!!

Yeah..

Thanks for your explain. Thanks for your judging. Thanks for your insulting words. Thanks for all of your fucking dropping words and let me to fuck you when i'm finally become a succesful. 

With Middle Finger,

Labibah

don't underestimate me!

Heyya i'm back! omg...how i miss my blog so much :( i almost have no time to open laptop. It's because my mom. She didn't allowed me to playing laptop until examination!! She always told me and reminded me to studying...studying...and studying everytime. Erggh ya, i can't refuse her. As long as i'm still her kid, i must following what she said. I don't wanna make my mom disappointed. Moreover, it's all for me too, isn't it? My parents, they're really expect me to give the best. And of course... to get a good college for my future. Sincerely, UI.

Ehm ya, UI. The one of biggest university in Indonesia and of course favorite. Sometimes, i asking to myself "Can I?" "Can I?" "Can I?" when i remember how tight the competition to get there. You know, people are talking about SMPTN, and talking how difficult is it. Ya Allah, that's true? if yes, make it easy for me then :( Everytime i hear people's story about it, and they're failed after passing a test, i often feeling give up. I was pessimistic in first. Just like "omg, she failed. Me too?" and all the bad things in my mind has come. My sister always supported me. She said: "You shouldn't thinking like that. You should think "Oh, she was failed. So, i must be!. I don't wanna like her" and everything nice advice that my sister gave to me. Oh well, i appreciate it.

I'm afraid in math test by the way. I'm not deny, math is my weakness. Admit it! Math is my enemy. I don't know, whether in English Literature there's mathematics or not. Obviously, if still there, i hope is not difficult as i imagine before. My sister, again and again... give me a positive word. She said "The first way to make Math is easy is make it your best friend!!" or "don't thinking that math is difficult. They will easy if you don't hate them" or .... "let's studying Mathematics with me!" OH HELL NO!!! What she thinking about ? i'm suck on it. My brain seems like refusing all of formulas. I don't even know, why am i very stupid on math! since I was elementary school, my parents already know that i'm suck on math. I prefer to language or english.

And another problem that usually make me doubt to get UI is... i come from little worst school at Bogor. Okay, maybe you don't know what i mean. So, let me to tell you. Yess, i'm not a Senior High School student actually. I school in VOCATIONAL HIGH SCHOOL or people knowing with SMK. My school isn't popular. Messy and suck! That's why i often thinking that i'm not able.

When people ask me where am I going after graduate, and i answer "Going to UI", they will showing are- you-sure? face. I hate it. Really hate it. Why people underestimate my dream? What's wrong with my answer? oh fuck them. Don't they realize that i need a support? Maybe they remember about my school. They remember where I school right now. And so they thinking that they're not sure. They think that I CAN'T GET UI. It's impossible for me. But who cares? Their negative mind instead make me spirit to reach my dream. I don't want to give up. I've a million dream in my life. I'll to prove them that they're wrong. That of course i can get UI. And one day... if i succeed, they will regret with their mind about me.

Now, i might be strong when people thinking like that. About my school. About i'm not able. About i'm stupid. About i'm not smart than my sister. But i promises... I WILL SHOWING THAT I CAN!! THEY'RE WRONG!! OF COURSE I CAN!! Wish me luck...