My Love Story

We have been in a relationship since May, 6 2012. It means that we have built our loves for about 2 years. He was my classmate in Vocational High School in Bogor, and we met at the first time when we were in second grade. Oh ya, he was a new student. He moved from Bandung and now, he is living in Bogor. So actually, he is originally Sundanese. First impression when i saw him was like: he is tall, has got fair skin, he is calm down and a little bit awkward. I’d like to say that he was a geek. Maybe it’s because of this is the first time he joined our school, so he still needed to adapt with new friends and new environment. At the point, i wasn’t interesting to him at all.

“who is that?” asked me to my friend, Novi.

“He is a new student, beh!” answered her.

“Really? such a weirdos” said me.

“Yeah but i think he needs to have make over just a little, so he will be more handsome hahahaha”

“Yeah whatever, Nov”

One day, when we had a movie classs, i sat down on his chair. He moved to the other chair. He put the black sweatshirt which i remember the written was “Jack Daniel” on the chair. Then, randomnly, i took the sweeatshirt and i smelled his black sweatshirt. Oh my goodddd... it was very fragrant. What a good smell. That wasn’t a smell of perfume, but a smell of clothes washes. It’s very unusual for a man who usually their sweatshirt has a bad smell. That was the second impression of him. Moreover, i like a boy who has a good smell.

In the class, he used to sleep while studying. I saw him from my chair in the far distance. He had never done his homework, smoking, lied to teachers, skipped the class for 3 days without any reason, and i used to see him as a bad boy. From his appearance, he was seen like he had drunk and consume narcotics. It was seen by his eyes.. very weak, had no spirit, and droop.

“Look at Danny, he is very weak. I guess he consumes a medicine for dopping” said one of my friend.

But, behind of his attitude, he is a loyal person. Kind a person who has a principe that friendship is number one. Solidarity in friendship should be kept because it’s very important. I said like this because I have ever seen that he always helped our friends who needed help. And he keeps carefully the relationship between our friend because he doesn’t want to have an enemy. What a cool princip! However, i still don’t understand about him. And of course, i haven’t had felt yet for him at that time.

One day he asked my number on facebook message for asking an assignment that was given from our teacher, of course i gave my number without any expectation. No need to wait for a long time, he texted me first:

“Hai”

“who is this?”

“I’m Danny. Are you bibeh, right?”

“Ohahaha... yees dan”

blablablabla.........

First from all, that was our text message. In the end, he didn’t even ask me about the assignment. I thought i have been cheated. Hahaha..

And time has gone so fast. I was third grade. I’m going to faces National Exam on May. But, i won’t tell about the National Exam in this story because it isn’t too important. I would like to tell about him (again). So, here is the story.

Actually, we haven’t been in conversation directly. Our conversation is limited, only in facebook message or in text message. But however, everynight we do it. Until we feel like a friend, he used to tell his story and I did the same. Sometimes, he gave me an advice, so i think he was more mature and wise. I like a boy who is more wise and mature than me.

But unfortunately, we had never had conversation in the class. We felt like a stranger if we were in the class. Both of us are ashamed to have conversation, even for greet each other. We were not as close as in the text message. I didn’t know why he did it to me, but i tried to positive thinking. Maybe he were shame. No more.

            After we passed National Exam, all of the students were break for almost one month, waiting for the result whether we passed Vocational High School or we must repeat one year again. During that time, we still do the conversation everynight. Yes, only everynight. He never texted me in the morning, noon, nor afternoon. I have ever asked about this, but he answered like “yess because my life is the same as a bat. Hahaha” . I thought he was a vampire hahaha. But, i know that wasn’t the real reason. However, i didn’t try to ask more. Maybe that is his privacy and if i forced him to tell, it won’t be fair.

            So, the most awaited day has arrived! It’s the day of announcement would be announced! The result was: all of the students in my school passed the exam. Yeay! It means that i’m going to go to University. We have ever talked about our future plans. He told me that he would get the job because he wants to help the economic in his family. Me as his friend could only support what is his decision as long as it’s positive.         Shortly, we have been in the ‘PDKT’ for almost 3 months. And now, we are in relationship (still) for 25 months. Eventhough sometimes we fight, we have different mind, different opinion, but we can solve it very well. Eventhough we have ever almost break up, but we still keep our love until now. Because when we are fighting its because of our ego, not really from the heart. And i’m so happy because he can protect me, treat me, and guide me very well. I’m kind of a girl who is really spoiled and fussy, sometimes i can be very sensitive and emotional. But he always succees to keep me calm down in every situation.                    

            Slowly, he has changed. He left his ‘world’ from narcotics, drunk, alcohol and motorcycle gank. Because he has realized, how his mom would be dissapointed if he still do those things? Just for info, he really loves his mom. He often to sharing, tell the story, until asks the tips with his mom. Such a weird boy! How can a boy like him, who was a gangster, loves and treat his mom like an angel? So, if his friends come home to invite drunk, he would refuse and find reasons to not to participate.

          He has ever told me,

            “I will treat you like what my mom said. If i hurt you, it means that i hurt my mom and my younger sister. Because you are the woman, that i should protect”

            “I love you just the way you are. You don’t need to be the other people. I just love you like this. Don’t ever change, baby”

I hope this relationship will be last long until the marriage. Save money to buy our own castle, making some plans for our future, having kids, and become a good parents. Aamiin

*I made this story for Prose's task as the requirement before Final Exam. I was embarassed when i wrote this because i imagine how my lecturer (Ms. Movi) expression would be*

I got it now...

Did you remember that i've ever written about my goals for 2012 ? I wrote it on my post last year with title "THIS IS SERIOUS". There are 5 goals, and one of them is finally came true. If you don't remember, let's see the picture in below. Fuck with number 1 and 3 ! it's just a trash right now. Just skip to number 4 which i gave pink colour. Yeah.. you got it?

Last year, i wish that i could get someone special in my life. I've been single for almost 2 half years (actually i doubt how long is it haha). I get bored at that time.. being single isn't always make you happy (i told you!). Sometimes you'll feel lonely, no one texted you everynight or called you except your fuckin friends or the fuckin'-damn-operator. Trust me, someday you'll feel that your life isn't colourfull and very flat. And when finally you find him, you'll feel that his attention is more than like your friends do or your parents do. I told you, it's not the same! You'll feel different when a boy give you an attention. You'll feel so damn special every every everyminute :D haha. (oh god.. what the heck i'm talking about!!) 

And now.. i have been in a relationship with Dany for 6 month since May, 6 2012. God accepted my goals :D God heard my wishes hahaha. Thanks God :)

fuck the title ! i'm confused

find someone who isn't afraid to admit that they miss you. someone who knows that you're not perfect, but treats you as if you are. someone whose biggest fear is losing you. one who gives their heart completely. someone who says "i love you" and means it.

last but not the least, find someone you wouldn't mind waking up with you in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and your black hair but still falls in love with you all over again.

Advice

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. You are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Don't hate everyone because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up, or your best friend betrayed you, your father hit you, the kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Don't concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to then let go when it's time. Don't hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren't worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create, imagine, inspire, share something wonderful. Meet new people. Make someone's day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it's full potential. Just live, dammit!!. Let go of all of the horrible things in your life and fucking live. And one day, when you're old, look back with no regrets :)

FOR WOMEN

He's not perfect.

You aren't either.

And the two of you will never be perfect.

But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can.

He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment...

 but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break.

Don't hurt him, don't change him.

 And don't expect more than he can give.

Don't analyze.

Smile when he makes you happy, yell when makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there.

Love hard when there is love to be had.

Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guys that is perfect for you.

-BOB MARLEY-

goodbye may! you may be my special month :)

Yeaay this is June already!! how excited i am. nanana *dancing*. (iwak peyek backsound) 
okay, i don't even know why should iwak peyek -____- 


Yo! Can't wait for snmptn. can't wait for running my college life. can't wait for meet new friends. can't wait for Russian Literature (and also English Literature if i'm lucky). it would be a great month i guess! as usually, so many people wrote their expectation on social media (of course plus hashtag in last word yeah haha). but special for this month, i just wanna share my wishes in my blogspot. let's see those below this text later...


last month, i had a lot of stories and i've been through many experience. 


in the month of May, i'm waiting for something that everytime i thought about it, i got my heart beating more faster. it was made me excited whenever i remember about it. you know what? yess...graduation announcements. until i know the result that we are graduated from that damned school, i'll never forget all of things in there, our effort, our togetherness, our experience, learning that i got, and the last.. the love that i got :) suddenly i realized... we aren't together anymore. *sobs* this is the last story about school life. start from when i was kindergarten, then elementary school arround 6 years, next to junior high sucks school (3 years), and 3 years full of fuckness in vocational high school. so, goodbye uniform. goodbye shoes. goodbye tie. goodbye everything about school stuff. we'll miss ya one time   


in the month of May, i was talking a lot about college. i became know which one the university who has a good quality and good reputation from my parents. aha! yes my parents :). they always know the best for me. they let me choose what i want but still gave me an advice. they're so wise :') i pick 'that' college for snmptn, they agreed. i pick two majors on my own, they agreed. but when i pick another college for reserve, they aren't agreed :(  nevermind... i know the reasons. and i amdited it finally. i'm so grateful because i've parents who still cared at me and understanding about college. thanks mom, thanks dad.


in the month of May, i've got a sweet experience with him :) i can't tell you in here. that's my privacy, only us and God whose knowing. 


and.....
in the month of may, i build relationships with someone who treat me like i'm a princess =) exactly, since M-A-Y 06, 2012. he's so romantic too. he's clever. he's mature enough. he's wise. he's so hilarious. he's so brave. he never ask me to change anything in myself. he let me to be a women as my own way :) but if i did a mistake, he will not be quiet. he would spoke to me that is wrong. i love him so much after Allah and my mom. mihihi


And this is my wishes for June.. *teeeeet teeeeeeet* *marching band sounds* 
(wait wait... i set playlist to Bondan fade2black song - Ya sudahlah)
1. i wish i could passed snmptn with the good score
2. i wish i could gettin' my fave college. 
3. i wish i could get (at least) Russian Literature in that college. But i still hoping too much for English Literature.
4. i wish i could make my parents, sister, family, proud of me because my achievement.
5. i wish my school will held a traveling in the last of graduation.
6. i wish this relationship will be staay for a looooong time until we.......*ahahaha*
7. i wish he'll find the job quickly
8. i wish my friends could find a job. And for those who continuing to college, God will gave them easier way to get it.


yeaah i think it's enough. just 8. simply. and no moreee :) 
for someone who read this post, would you mind to say "ameeen"? so i will loving you guys hahaha. but for remind, human can planning anything but God who decides it. keep praying :)


thank youu so muuuch to reading. i love yaa :)

labibeeh..

Ah, i love you like a love song baby

Makasih ya udah mau ngajakin aku main

Makasih udah bikin hari-hari aku jadi lebih menyenangkan

Makasih udah mau dengerin aku curhat

Makasih udah culik aku keluar disaat aku lagi bete di rumah

Makasih udah traktir-traktir aku jajan

Makasih udah bantuin aku bikin pengalaman baru

Makasih udah ada waktunya buat nemenin aku jalan

Makasih udah mau bagi-bagi pengalaman

Makasih aa danie sayaaaaaang :*

Me plus you

Setelah di cermati dan di renungkan dalam-dalam, gue baru sadar… ternyata gue dan dia sungguh unik. Bukan, bukan dilihat dari fisik kami yang unik karena muka gue tidak penyok-penyok. Hanya mengingatkan, gue masih cantik seperti dulu. Dan dia juga tidak botak seperti bubu atau bermuka unik seperti tukul. Dia tampan. Tapi unik disini maksudnya adalah unik sifat. Ya, kami memang sangat unik. Pasalnya disini yang lebih banyak omong justru malah dia, pacar gue. Dia lebih cerewet dan senang sekali ngobrol dibandingkan gue yang cenderung lebih sering menjadi pendengar. Sekalinya dia cerita, bakalan panjang nyambung-nyambung kemana tau sampe lupa waktu. Biasanya kan tahu sendiri, cewek dimana-mana lebih cerewet dan yang cool itu cowoknya. Tapi untuk kasus yang satu ini jelas berbeda.

Mungkin gue lebih ke ‘manja’nya kali ya. Gue suka banget nyubit-nyubitin pipi dia, narik-narik idungnya, dan terkadang mepet-mepetin badan ke sweaternya yang wangi itu. Gajelas maksudnya apa, tapi gue sering lho ngelakuin itu kalo dia merhatiin gue dengan tatapan dalem. Kan maluuuuu cooooooy diliatin pacar lama-lama kaya gitu, guenya bisa sampe melting (ahaha najong yee?) Tapi gak munafik sih gue.

Dan disini yang lebih kayak anak kecil adalah gue. Dia itu walaupun cerewet tapi dewasanya masih di perhatikan dengan baik. Lucu deh pokoknya di balik tampangnya yang cool dan pendiem itu, siapa sangka ternyata dia sebenernya banyak omong dan rame. Gak heran kalo dia sering di cari-cariin temen-temennya buat diajak nongkrong, katanya sih kalo gak ada dia gak rame gitu.

Pokoknya dia itu sosok yang dapat membawa ion-ion penyemangat baru buat gue. Dia juga yang selalu cerewet buat ingetin gue makan, dia juga yang nasehatin gue dengan kata-kata bijaknya ketika gue sedang kesal dan bete sama nyokap (dia paling gasuka kalo gue jelek-jelekin nyokap dengan kata kasar, karena dia sendiri cukup dekat dengan ibunya). Ya, semoga gue dan dia bisa langgeng dan baik-baik aja. Soalnya gue udah terlanjur sayang sama dia sih hihi :p      

COUPLE ♥

In a Relationship

I'll never know what the future brings 
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

Hal-hal yang membuatku jatuh cinta padamu:

1. Dewasanya kamu ketika berbicara

2. Dewasanya kamu ketika berfikir

3. Pembawaan dirimu yang tenang dan cool

4. Kamu selalu memegang teguh prinsip-prinsip yang kamu buat

5. Meskipun kelihatan jarang ngomong, tapi kalau udah deket pasti kamu nyerocos terus

6. Kamu mandiri, tidak bergantung pada orang tua.

7. Kamu tidak pernah malu menceritakan pengalaman, kehidupan pribadi, atau keluarga kepadaku.

8. Kamu terbuka dan tidak pernah menutupi masalah-masalahmu. Segala sesuatunya selalu kamu ceritakan.

9. Kamu apa adanya. Tidak berusaha menjadi orang lain :)

10. Kamu selalu jujur

11. Kamu punya pandangan hidup yang baik

12. Kamu tidak pernah ragu berbagi kisah denganku

13. Kamu selalu belajar dari pengalaman

14. Kamu pintar masak (walaupun aku belum pernah nyicipin masakan kamu :p)

15. Meskipun kelihatan sombong, tapi kamu tidak pernah ragu membantu teman yang sedang kesulitan

16. Kamu gak pernah membandingkan aku dengan orang lain :)

17. Kamu memiliki pemikiran yang kritis

18. Meskipun kamu anggota bikers, tapi kamu masih punya tata krama dan tidak anarkis.

19. Kamu memang tidak terlalu mencolok di akademik, tapi di kehidupan nyata kamu sangat cerdas

20. Kamu selalu memberikan saran yang beralasan dan maksud akal

21. Sikap kamu yang pantang menyerah

22. Kamu tidak pernah takut mencoba segala hal baru

23. Kamu sangat aktif dan tidak bisa berdiam diri

24. Kamu pintar bermain gitar

25. Kamu orang yang usil

26. Kamu punya adik perempuan, kakak perempuan, dan seorang ibu yang sabar. Dengan begitu kamu akan menghargai seorang perempuan dan tidak pernah meremehkannya

27. Rasa banggamu terhadap budaya yang di warisi orang tua

28. Kamu percaya diri

29. Kamu berusaha merubah sifat burukmu karena belajar dari pengalaman yang pernah terjadi

30. Dan yang terakhir..... kamu tampan :)

I don’t know why you’re so far away 

But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

FOR YOU, P.R

-May, 06 2012-

Mihihihi

P.R 

I TALKING ABOUT HIM

She always exist on your status, and you too. Why both of you are so closed? do you like her, huh? I told you, I'M JEALOUS. It's okay if you on her status (everytime), but you also do the same for me. I mean, you also on my status (hahaha). Sounds very selfish? ya, i guess so. But i've lost my patience. I'm getting hurt everytime seeing you and her on my recent update. I still like you, i have a lot of feeling for you, i'm expect too much for you, but see what you did to me? You never understand about love. I'm tired because i've spent my time to worries about you. I'm jealous... jealous... very jealous... and maybe you never know it. You aren't sensitif person, and i called it with my stupid-dumb-thing that i did for you. I'm too believe and maybe it's my mistake that i've ever did!!
And the last night (the klimaks)... you was dissapear. You didn't reply my text. Ahhhh... beside, my negative thinking said that my texted which i sent to him was excessive. You don't need to know what the text, but my feeling said like that. He was mad at me. 


see you ...

Sweet

Love Graphics



Love Graphics



Girly Graphics


Love Graphics


Girly Graphics



Girly Graphics



Girly Graphics



Girly Graphics


Love Graphics



Girly Graphics


Girly Graphics
Girly Graphics






Love Graphics

Everything with you

I want to wake up next to you, eat breakfast with you, get changed with you, play computer games with you, watching movies with you in bed, hold your hand and watch tv, send you cute texts, buy you gifts, nap together, wear your comfy hoody when i'm cold, look into your eyes, be with you at sunrise and sunset, cook for you, walk in the rain with you, fall asleep whilst on the phone to you, snuggle in bed, mess up your hair, kiss you goodnight

eighteen years old

Yap yap this is my birthday.

Just to remember...

18 years ago, i was born to the earth through caesar operation from a great woman ever. 

Guess who? 

ya, She's my mom :)

Sedikit cerita di hari ulang tahun gue ini yang biasa-biasa aja, ada beberapa hal yang ingin gue share sama teman-teman bloggies. Gak terlalu seru sih karena gue hari ini tidak kemana-mana (hehe), tapi yang namanya lagi bahagia sah-sah aja dong sharing sama kalian? muehehehe

First: 

'He said happy birthday'

Gue dapet ucapan selamat ulang tahun dari si doi pas tengah malem sekitar jam 00:05. OMG, dia adalah orang pertama yang say HB ke gue. Awalnya gue fikir dia lupa karena malemnya kita masih smsan seperti biasa dan doi sama sekali gak ngungkit tentang ulang tahun. Tololnya gue pake acara ketiduran segala dan baru baca tuh sms sekitar 30 menit kemudian.

Hahaha. Maaf yaa kaseep.

Isi smsnya ituloh yang bikin gue terharu :')

Wawawawa... pas baca itu gue jadi senyum-senyum sendiri.

Kemudian gue bales: 

"waaaaa lo inget ***** ? :o hihi thanks yaaa"

Eh dia bales:

"Hahaha. Inget lah gue. Lu kan pernah ngucapin selamet juga ke gue"

Gue bales:

"Oh iya yaa :o Okee.. makacii lagi yaa ***** :* .Seneng ih gw"

(sumpah alay bgt gue disitu. bodo lah)

Dia malah bales:

"Iya sama". Udah sana tidur gih. Tar sakit loh"

 (Gubraaaaak!!!)

 Semenit kemudian ada sms dari doi lagi:

"Maaf yah gw ga bisa ngasih kado. Tar lah kalo ada uang gw kasih kado"

  

*ya ampuun gak perlu kado gue, dapet ucapan dari lo aja gue udah seneng kok :)*

thanks loh yaa... sumpah mungkin bagi doi biasa aja, tapi bagi gue ini berkesan banget. Sebelumnya gue belum pernah ada yang ngucapin selamat ultah tengah malem kayak gini terlebih dari seorang lawan jenis :( sedih yaaa emang. Tapi berkat lo, semuanya jadi berbeda. 

sekali lagi thanks for you

Second:

"My mom called me" 

  

Ibu menelefon untuk ngucapin selamat ulang tahun buat gue.

 Kejadiannya pas pagi-pagi banget sekitar jam 6-an ketika gue masih tidur. 

Beliau yang saat ini sedang di Yogyakarta untuk dinas, menelefon lewat handphone bapak yang jam segitu memang sudah bangun. 

Saat itu kakak gue nyamperin ke tempat tidur dan membangunkan gue dengan semangatnya.

"Beh, ada telfon nih dari Ibu. Mau ngomong" 

"Haah? hooh iya iya" kata gue sambil setengah merem.

Dan terjadilah percakapan itu.

Lagi-lagi gue terharu dengernya :'( 

Ibu doain gue supaya gue lulus UN, dan keinginan gue buat kuliah bisa terkabul.

Terakhir sebelum telfon di tutup, ibu bertanya:

"Mau kado apa? Tas gemblok (tas punggung) aja ya?"

(ya ampuuun masih sempet-sempetnya nyokap nawarin kado di saat dia lagi sibuk begini)

Dan gue teringat beberapa hari yang lalu disaat beliau memarahi gue karena gue tidak belajar.

Dia bilang:

"BELAJAR AJA MASIH MALES, YANG KAYAK GITU MAU SOK2AN KULIAH!! ORANG KALO KULIAH ITU HARUS RAJIN DARI AWALNYA"

Demi apa dong mau nangis gue dengernya. Tapi setelah tahu kalo beliau akhirnya mendoakan juga buat gue agar kuliah, rasanya pengen menarik semua kekesalan yang pernah gue utarakan waktu itu. 

 Thanks mom and sorry for all my fault

THIRD:  

Greeting from my overseas friends 

That special moment when my friend from Australia and Egypt saying Happy Birthday to me.

 

 

(Bobo Yacout kebiasaan manggil gue Pipaah :D haha lucu-lucu mereka tuh)

:D :D

Sekarang waktunya gue untuk membenah diri. Tahun ini adalah tahun terakhir gue memakai baju seragam, selebihnya gue akan memasuki dunia yang 'real', dunia kampus (ah sadaaap), dunia lain, dua dunia. Halah jadi ngaco gini -___-

Intinya mah, gue gapunya waktu lagi buat main-main. Gue harus membiasakan diri untuk lebih bersikap dewasa. Laki-laki mana yang mau sama perempuan yang sikapnya masih kayak anak kecil? oh nooo. Sekali lagi makasih banget buat orang2 yang udah ngucapin hari ini. Terutama buat sahabat2 gue Dita, Zulfah, Kamila, Novi, dan teman-teman di sekolah. Thanks atas doa kalian yaa.

Okay guys thank you for read my post. I'll be back to share awesome thing on next time :)

see yaaa

with love,

Labibah