How do you treat people?

Sometimes you have to step down from your level and treat people the same way they treat you. It might make them see who they really are and it might make them fall deeper into their pathetic life. Either way... despite our goodness and kind hearts, it does feel good to give those people what they deserve sometimes.

An Interview With Labibah (just for fun)

This post is just for fun! some of questions are inspired from ask.fm. Some are real answers and some are just made up story (remember, i made this post is only for entertaining you! haha). So, check it out....

Q: Hallo, Labibah. How was your day? I heard that you are very busy in this Ramadhan Month... could you tell me what's your activity lately?
A: Hey.. i'm good Alhamdulillah. Ya, that's very true. I have some schedules like; charity event, training to improve my quality in teaching, breakfasting with my friends and photoshoot. But actually, hahaha... my real activity is only teaching and campus-ing, but for now, i'm in the break at campus for about 3 months. So, i can focus for that.

Q: What is your occupation actually?
A: Well, i'm a student at Ibnu Khaldun University. But i'm an English teacher after that hahaha. I teach in Simple English Course. Umm... and then... i'm a daughter of Mr. Amron and Mrs. Suginem at home. Wahahaha :p (laughing so hard)

Q: So, you are studying about teachers and English at the same time at campus?
A: Umm.. yess. I take English Education in Faculty of Teacher Training and Education Science or Fakultas Keguruan dan Ilmu Pendidikan in Indonesian language. So, i can get either English and knowledge about how to be a teacher.

Q: Does become a teacher is your idea?
A: Not really, i don't want people saying that i must be a teacher as the future because that is not my real goal. Let say, i have so many dreams like; being a designer, writer, freelance, and also being a housewife. So, i don't want to get judge 'you have to be a teacher'. I believe that God has prepared the other plan.

Q: Okay, are you kids lovers by the way?
A: Yess i'm. Hahahaha... They are very cute and plain. Whenever i talk to them, i can forget so many bad things because they give me a positive aura. There are no drama, rude words, sarcasm and any other negative things when you talk to kids. And one thing, i love to pinch their cheek very much hahaha (laughing so hard). I can't stand to not to pinch their cheek, because they are too adorable hihi. Sounds cruel, but yeah.. as long as they enjoy that, i don't even scare to pinch hahaa.


Q: Do you study about kids psychology?
A: Yess i do. I have ever studied twice about psychology. And it's so interesting. It is like "oooh.. so I have been wrong during this time" hahaha. And you'll feel guilty because you just knew the truth.


Q: Do you like photograph? What kind of object that you often to take ?
A: Photography? yes i do like but i don't have any DSLR or SLR camera. I just shoot what's around me by my phone, then i give a bit of effect in photoshop or any other software. Just as simple as that :)


Q: Can you tell me how is your personality?
A: Ummm... (thinking). I can be fussy and calm down at the same time. Ya, my friends and my family said that they can't predict my emotion. I'm a moody, I can change my mood easily depend on my feeling and the environment around me. I laugh easier, I can say the cruel words directly to the people who is so annoying. I can hide my feelings but i can't control my desire to tell 'what's going happen actually to me'.


Q: So, the last but not least. Can you describe yourself in 3 words?
A: Unique, cute, moody.


Q: Thanks for the interview, Labibah. I enjoyed every single conversation with you. Hope i can get the second chance to having conversation with you and your boyfriend.
A: With my pleasure :) nice to share my story to you too. Ya, aamiin :) success for us!

Credit: tumblr

I learner the hard way that i cannot always count on others to respect my feelings. Even if i respect theirs. Being a good person doesn't guarantee that others will be good people, too.

 You only have control over yourself and how you choose to be as a person. As for others, you can only choose to accept them or walk away.

What i feel lately

I don't know what kind of feeling is this... 

Sometimes, you can be an annoying, careless, and bossy. But behind of that, i was secretly touched with a bit of your attention. Ya, just a bit.

I shouldn't have this feeling. It's not supposed to be happen.

Period.

How if I was a vampire?

Since GGS has been airing on television, i become interested in vampire. Eventhough i know that GGS is adopted from Twilight (the main characters are similar to the twilight), but the only one reason why i often watch it because of Kevin Julio is there (haha). Then, with the curiosity that drives me to be 'kepo', i start to browse what are the characteristics of vampire until i found a pict of vampire was biting the victim. Not really cool yet scary -__-
One day, when i didn't have anything to do on Sunday, i tried to make an experiment with make up. I was thinking about the theme, but suddenly i remember that i have ever had intention to try make up with a vampire style. Aha! . 

I imagine how is vampire's appearance in movies. Of course with the pale face (i gave much foundation), dark fringe eyes (eyeliner exactly!), little touch of red around the eyes, and i gave red lipstick to make sexy impression. For the hijab, i choose red hijab to get a 'sexy and elegant' vampire and i wore it with the simple style.

is this pale enough?

are you suspicious that i'm a vampire?

vampires are rarely to smiling

I'm ready to bite you!

Just for fun, guys! i hope it can make an inspiration for you. Thanks for visited

My Love Story

We have been in a relationship since May, 6 2012. It means that we have built our loves for about 2 years. He was my classmate in Vocational High School in Bogor, and we met at the first time when we were in second grade. Oh ya, he was a new student. He moved from Bandung and now, he is living in Bogor. So actually, he is originally Sundanese. First impression when i saw him was like: he is tall, has got fair skin, he is calm down and a little bit awkward. I’d like to say that he was a geek. Maybe it’s because of this is the first time he joined our school, so he still needed to adapt with new friends and new environment. At the point, i wasn’t interesting to him at all.

“who is that?” asked me to my friend, Novi.

“He is a new student, beh!” answered her.

“Really? such a weirdos” said me.

“Yeah but i think he needs to have make over just a little, so he will be more handsome hahahaha”

“Yeah whatever, Nov”

One day, when we had a movie classs, i sat down on his chair. He moved to the other chair. He put the black sweatshirt which i remember the written was “Jack Daniel” on the chair. Then, randomnly, i took the sweeatshirt and i smelled his black sweatshirt. Oh my goodddd... it was very fragrant. What a good smell. That wasn’t a smell of perfume, but a smell of clothes washes. It’s very unusual for a man who usually their sweatshirt has a bad smell. That was the second impression of him. Moreover, i like a boy who has a good smell.

In the class, he used to sleep while studying. I saw him from my chair in the far distance. He had never done his homework, smoking, lied to teachers, skipped the class for 3 days without any reason, and i used to see him as a bad boy. From his appearance, he was seen like he had drunk and consume narcotics. It was seen by his eyes.. very weak, had no spirit, and droop.

“Look at Danny, he is very weak. I guess he consumes a medicine for dopping” said one of my friend.

But, behind of his attitude, he is a loyal person. Kind a person who has a principe that friendship is number one. Solidarity in friendship should be kept because it’s very important. I said like this because I have ever seen that he always helped our friends who needed help. And he keeps carefully the relationship between our friend because he doesn’t want to have an enemy. What a cool princip! However, i still don’t understand about him. And of course, i haven’t had felt yet for him at that time.

One day he asked my number on facebook message for asking an assignment that was given from our teacher, of course i gave my number without any expectation. No need to wait for a long time, he texted me first:

“Hai”

“who is this?”

“I’m Danny. Are you bibeh, right?”

“Ohahaha... yees dan”

blablablabla.........

First from all, that was our text message. In the end, he didn’t even ask me about the assignment. I thought i have been cheated. Hahaha..

And time has gone so fast. I was third grade. I’m going to faces National Exam on May. But, i won’t tell about the National Exam in this story because it isn’t too important. I would like to tell about him (again). So, here is the story.

Actually, we haven’t been in conversation directly. Our conversation is limited, only in facebook message or in text message. But however, everynight we do it. Until we feel like a friend, he used to tell his story and I did the same. Sometimes, he gave me an advice, so i think he was more mature and wise. I like a boy who is more wise and mature than me.

But unfortunately, we had never had conversation in the class. We felt like a stranger if we were in the class. Both of us are ashamed to have conversation, even for greet each other. We were not as close as in the text message. I didn’t know why he did it to me, but i tried to positive thinking. Maybe he were shame. No more.

            After we passed National Exam, all of the students were break for almost one month, waiting for the result whether we passed Vocational High School or we must repeat one year again. During that time, we still do the conversation everynight. Yes, only everynight. He never texted me in the morning, noon, nor afternoon. I have ever asked about this, but he answered like “yess because my life is the same as a bat. Hahaha” . I thought he was a vampire hahaha. But, i know that wasn’t the real reason. However, i didn’t try to ask more. Maybe that is his privacy and if i forced him to tell, it won’t be fair.

            So, the most awaited day has arrived! It’s the day of announcement would be announced! The result was: all of the students in my school passed the exam. Yeay! It means that i’m going to go to University. We have ever talked about our future plans. He told me that he would get the job because he wants to help the economic in his family. Me as his friend could only support what is his decision as long as it’s positive.         Shortly, we have been in the ‘PDKT’ for almost 3 months. And now, we are in relationship (still) for 25 months. Eventhough sometimes we fight, we have different mind, different opinion, but we can solve it very well. Eventhough we have ever almost break up, but we still keep our love until now. Because when we are fighting its because of our ego, not really from the heart. And i’m so happy because he can protect me, treat me, and guide me very well. I’m kind of a girl who is really spoiled and fussy, sometimes i can be very sensitive and emotional. But he always succees to keep me calm down in every situation.                    

            Slowly, he has changed. He left his ‘world’ from narcotics, drunk, alcohol and motorcycle gank. Because he has realized, how his mom would be dissapointed if he still do those things? Just for info, he really loves his mom. He often to sharing, tell the story, until asks the tips with his mom. Such a weird boy! How can a boy like him, who was a gangster, loves and treat his mom like an angel? So, if his friends come home to invite drunk, he would refuse and find reasons to not to participate.

          He has ever told me,

            “I will treat you like what my mom said. If i hurt you, it means that i hurt my mom and my younger sister. Because you are the woman, that i should protect”

            “I love you just the way you are. You don’t need to be the other people. I just love you like this. Don’t ever change, baby”

I hope this relationship will be last long until the marriage. Save money to buy our own castle, making some plans for our future, having kids, and become a good parents. Aamiin

*I made this story for Prose's task as the requirement before Final Exam. I was embarassed when i wrote this because i imagine how my lecturer (Ms. Movi) expression would be*

A long long time

Hello bloggies! It's very nice that i can greet you again. I just passed a lot of (ass)ignment (haha) as a requirement before faces final exam that will be held on June, 16. This week I'm counting down the days toward the final exam. Where people at my campus called it as 'silent day'.
Well, here i am. I have so many thought and idea right now, yeah the causes is because of i'm in a good mood. So, i can't stop to think which topics that i should have post in here. But, it doesn't take too long, because the ideas always come quickly when i saw photoshop's logo on my notebook. Yup, recently i made a poster for the event at my office. I was asked by Mr. Cahyo to made the poster. The name is "Simple Race of Indonesia". So, here is the poster

I was stuck at that time. Didn't have any idea

Well, above is the second poster. Actually i had made the other one before that.... but, it looks uninteresting. As Mr. Ade asked me to highlight the activity, not the venue.

The first poster

Both were made without any inspiration. It was naturally come from my mind. I didn't even have a time to think because the time was limited and it must be announced to the students a long before 24th of June. However, i felt satisfied because i can finished it on time. 

So, which one is better? hehe. 

daffodils

That floats on high o'er cales and hills,

When all at once I saw a crowd

A host, of golden daffodils

Beside the lake, beneath the tress,

Fluttering and dancing in the breeze

-by William Wordsworth-

(Eclair, Pagi Terakhir di Rusia)

I'm that friend...

credit: we heart it 

i don't know

this feeling shouldn't be happen

i'm just tired of this shit

i just want to keep a distance between that people

to make this feeling disappear

Past and Now

I remember when i was child, I followed my sister everytime she played with her friends and disturb her with my annoying act. I just wanted to join with them. I just wanted to have a lot of friend like my friends. But my sister hates me. My sister didn't want if I joined with her friend. She ignored me. Of course. She was angry.

"You are very annoying!!" she said.

"Go to your friends! Don't follow me!" she said again. 

I remember how was my sister's face at that time.

I cried. I told to my grandma. My grandma got angry, and my sister was scolded by her.  

But it just a past.. 

Years by years, it's not happen anymore between us. Because we are mature enough to understand 'what the meaning of sibling' . As long as getting older, we are become more closer than before.

My sister graduated from junior high school, senior high school, and time has gone so fast to brought her became S.si (bachelor of science). Yeah, she graduated on December 2012 from Bogor Agricultural Institute. And i'm proud to have a sister like her!  

She understands me very much as her sibling. When i'm sad, she would ask me and I told her what actually happen or everything in my life. She gives me either advices or idea after that. And I do the same.. I'm willing to be her listener. We often share each other about little thing, secrets, history, and experience. 

And yeaah.. that's a short story about us. Actually so maaaaaanyyyy things that i want to share but i don't have much time to tell you.
 But anyway, I'm really grateful to Allah because he gave me a sister like her. I wish we would have a chance to seeing our children live together. Her little family and mine. I wish we could share each other about marriage, kids, and education to our children then. And i wish Allah gives us a time until those wishes become true.. Aamiin....

Left side: When we were kid | Right side: we are now

Some togetherness

Fooooolll

Never look away

It's all in the details.

They way someone stops smiling the moment you aren't looking.

How their answers become shorter, their laughter a little bit more forced for every time.

You'll sometimes catch them with distant look in their eyes, as if they're staring into the big nothingness that surrounds them.

Completely gone. Lost. Alone.

You might find that they start distancing themselves from you, making excuses, feeding you with their little covering lies.

"I'm just tired," they'll say.

They'll laugh it off, every single time. You should pay attention to how they start covering up their bodies, hiding every inch of their skin, hating every inch of their skin.

They won't take your compliments, if so, you'll only get a simple 'thank you' and they will take it all for lies.

Self hate could easily be mistaken for self irony - although they say it with a smile on their face, keep your eyes open for the empty look that follows.

Pay attention.

Never look away.

Because they are nearly impossible to spot, unless you're one of them.

month by month

This straight-up means you are the most good looking person possible, better than all of these other months!

-Loyal and Generous-

-Patriotic-

-Competitive in everything-

-Active in games and interactions-

-Impatient and hasty-

-Ambitious-

-Influential in organizations-

-Fun to be with-

-Easy to talk to, though hard to understand-

-Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know-

-Easily influenced by kindness-

-Polite and soft spoken-

-Having lots of ideas-

-Sensitive-

-Active mind-

-Hesitating, tends to delay-

-Choosy and always wants the best-

-Temperamental-

-Funny and humorous-

-Loves to Joke-

-Good debating skills-

-Has that someone always on his/her mind-

-Talkative-

-Daydreamer-

-Friendly

-Knows how to make friends-

-Abiding-

-Able to show character one guy/girl kind of person-

-Loveable-

-Easily hurt-

-Prone to getting colds-

-Love music-

for you

I love that you know me.

I love your facial expressions

I love the way you say my name

I love the way you want to tell me things

I love your smile

I love your laugh

I love that we have the same sense of humor

I love that we're on the same wavelength

I love the friendly flirting

I love our conversation

I love that you care, even if it's not the kind of care that I want

I love that you are never awkward arround me

I love how you smell and how it lingers on my clothes

I love your hugs and how they're warm and safe

I love the way your eyes light up when you laugh

I love how you're such a geek sometimes

I love that I'm your favourite

I love that our hands fit together perfectly

I love that you're concerned about me

I love that you make me do that cliche sigh

I love how you make me burst into fits of laughter after everything you say, 

because you really are that funny to me.

I love how you trust me

I love how we're best friends.

I love that I can trust you

I love that you're close by

I love that I was able to know you.

I love you

I love you, Dan

Six April 13

death

So, i started thinking about the ways that people leave us: car accidents, heart attacks, cancer, plane crashes, mass shootings. peacefully, privately, tragically, violently. some people die before they even get the chance to become people, and maybe that's the saddest part-that no matter when or how it happens, there's always the fact that there could have been more. more love, more time to grow, more fun to be had, more unsaid words to say. at first, i was constantly afraid that it might be my time too, and i was THE END at every turn. then, i became obsessive about trying to say the right things at the right times, making my movements graceful and calculated. but what i learned is that existing like that is as close to dying as it is to living

how to develop khusho in Salah

Bismillah... 
How to develop Khusho in Salah?

this post is probably can help you to be much better in Salah (inshaAllah). There are some of points that you must pay attention when you do Salah or before you do it.

1. DON'T DELAY
    Try to pray as early as possible

2. PREPARE YOURSELF FOR PRAYER PROPERLY
    Repeat the adzan, perform wudhu properly.

3. ELIMINATE INWARD & OUTWARD DISTRACTIONS.

4. RENEW INTENTION & SEEK, REFUGE WITH ALLAH FROM SYAITAN.
    
5. TAKE YOUR TIME IN RECITATION
    Pause at the end of each ayat.

6. GIVE EACH POSITION IT'S DUE RIGHT
    Strive to make do'a in sujud (that is when we are closest to Allah)

7. FOCUS ON WHOM WE ARE SPEAKING TO IN OUR SALAH

8. REMEMBER DEATH !

9. KNOW THE MEANING OF WHAT YOU ARE SAYING

10. RECITE ADHKAAR AFTER SALAH
      They help strengthen khusho in the heart.


All of those points inshaAllah can be useful for you all. I got this from Islamic twitter account that they were tweeting about Ayaah Al-quran's quotation, motivaton, hadist, and pict. Unfortunately. I forgot what the name was.

 

I got it now...

Did you remember that i've ever written about my goals for 2012 ? I wrote it on my post last year with title "THIS IS SERIOUS". There are 5 goals, and one of them is finally came true. If you don't remember, let's see the picture in below. Fuck with number 1 and 3 ! it's just a trash right now. Just skip to number 4 which i gave pink colour. Yeah.. you got it?

Last year, i wish that i could get someone special in my life. I've been single for almost 2 half years (actually i doubt how long is it haha). I get bored at that time.. being single isn't always make you happy (i told you!). Sometimes you'll feel lonely, no one texted you everynight or called you except your fuckin friends or the fuckin'-damn-operator. Trust me, someday you'll feel that your life isn't colourfull and very flat. And when finally you find him, you'll feel that his attention is more than like your friends do or your parents do. I told you, it's not the same! You'll feel different when a boy give you an attention. You'll feel so damn special every every everyminute :D haha. (oh god.. what the heck i'm talking about!!) 

And now.. i have been in a relationship with Dany for 6 month since May, 6 2012. God accepted my goals :D God heard my wishes hahaha. Thanks God :)

Pain

People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all.

People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit.

Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing.

People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. 

How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? 

Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain.

But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. 

You feel your strength in the experience of pain. 

It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. 

Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality.

If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. 
You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

that's life

There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. 

When we are afraid, we pull back from life. 

When we are in love, we open to all that life has

 to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. 

We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. 

If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open 

to our ability to love others or our potential to create. 

Evolution and all hopes for a better 

world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted 

vision of people who embrace life.